It has been far too long since I have written. I suppose I could tell you a million reasons why life has been too busy for me to blog, but all of that would be excuses. The honest truth is that I never really know what to write about. This has given me a new appreciation for those wide eyed first and second graders that look at me when I ask them to write on a daily basis with a frustrated look on their faces and say, "Mrs. Maki, I don't know what to write about." In reality, there are a million things I can and should be writing about. However, I'm a bit intimidated by the husbands humor and the fact that my posts never end up that way. I guess I need to learn to be okay with that. My posts just have a different flare.
I have to admit that my thoughts as of late have had to do with mostly one topic, BABY! That's right, at eighteen weeks into this pregnancy, the baby is consuming almost all of my thoughts and energy. The projects on my to-do list are either directly or indirectly related to the baby coming. Yes, completing the nursery is on the list, but so is finishing that t-shirt quilt I promised my husband last summer because, "if I don't do it now, I won't do it with a newborn infant."
I've learned that everyone asks pregnant woman, "how are you feeling." I do it too, so I shouldn't be surprised, but the reality is that as a pregnant woman, you kind of get sick of answering this question. I'm sure that things will change as the pregnancy goes on. But, right now, I will just embrace the fact that I have been feeling awesome! The nausea is gone from the first trimester. The totally huge, baby taking over my body feeling of the third trimester has not occurred yet. I'm just enjoying the second trimester. The joy and awe of a 5.6 inch baby with fingernails and organs growing inside of me is overwhelming.
There have been a couple of times when I've wondered if I'm feeling the baby move, but I'm not really sure. The placenta is also on the anterior wall of the uterus, so my doctor told me that I may feel movement later than most. Next week I go back to the doctor for my check up, and we have our "anatomy ultra sound" scheduled at the hospital for the second week in August. We are not going to find out sex of the baby, as we are very excited for the surprise at delivery, but are still excited to see the baby again and hopefully learn that all is well in its development.
I've been reading, reading, reading, and learning lots about pregnancy, delivery, and infant care. I have to admit that I was pretty geeked to get our first package of cloth diapers that we ordered. Ask me about them after changing and washing them for a year and I may feel differently, but as for now, I'm excited about our decision. Now, I'm just waiting for our bedding to arrive. It was back-ordered, so I'll be waiting for a while. Really, I can relate the waiting and preparation for a baby to that of the waiting and preparation for our wedding. While it seems you are ready and can hardly wait, you're never quite prepared for all that's in store. I guess I'll find out in December. The good news is that all the waiting and preparation for our wedding/marriage was totally worth it, and I couldn't be more thankful for the outcome. The most exciting part of all of this is that I've been able to share both of these times of waiting with Chris. It truly does make the waiting so much better to be able to share it with someone you love and to view the same situation from each others different perspectives. I am so excited to see him as a dad. I know he's going to be a great one!
So, there is a window into my heart and mind lately. The reality is, we all have lots to share, but we sometimes don't know how to put a title on it or put it into story form. We have to start somewhere...that's what drafting is all about! I have so much to share with those second graders in a few weeks!
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