So I have not been married too long now, but I have noticed some things change in me since I said those words "I Do". But before I get to that I need to step back and paint a picture of the life I remember, and the person I remember before June 18th of this year.
Step back a moment with me and take a look at the man I use to be.
I guess I would have said about my past-self that I was an independent, opinionated, self-reliant kind of guy. I would not say I was organized, but I was to that point in my life where I was living in a semi-clean home, doing the dishes, regularly (Notice I said regularly not nightly) I cleaned my toilet, my sink, my clothes, vacuumed also on a regular basis. When I lost my car keys I would look and find my own car keys. Before I would go out I would open my closet and pick out my mismatched pieced together wardrobe that I though looked good. Yes, thought.
Oh my how things have changed for this man.
That independent, opinionated, self-reliant man has taken a step back these days. So, now listen to the kind of man I have become... and becoming.
I now do the dishes each night, as soon as dinner is done. My home is no longer semi clean, but a beautiful clean home where I even recognize when things are out of order and out of place. But the best part is when I loose something I no longer go look for it my first words are "Kari have you seen_______"? Before I even look. It is like I am no longer capable of looking myself. My favorite one that pushed our relationship into a new whole level of lost independence just happened. I came home the other day ready to go out to a party and I asked my beautiful bride "What am I wearing tonight?" (Like I am no longer capable of picking it out) And her response: "I have already picked them out and laid them on the bed for you" And it hit me right there...I no longer have to think in this marriage. The man I once was has officially been dissolved. Completely.
This is not a bad thing though. Scripture tells us that TWO will become ONE. And I think this is a very true statement. In ways that go far beyond the obvious. You see I think I am no longer that person because I want to try as hard as I can to be a better man for my wife. One that is not independent, but DEPENDS on her. Not opinionated but stops to LISTEN to her thoughts and feelings. Not self-reliant but one who puts her NEEDS above my own. And somehow, through the mysteries of God become ONE working unit, not two. And if that means I no longer have to think about what I wear. So be it.
