And two became one

So I have not been married too long now, but I have noticed some things change in me since I said those words "I Do".  But before I get to that I need to step back and paint a picture of the life I remember, and the person I remember before June 18th of this year.

Step back a moment with me and take a look at the man I use to be.

I guess I would have said about my past-self that I was an independent, opinionated, self-reliant kind of guy.  I would not say I was organized, but I was to that point in my life where I was living in a semi-clean home, doing the dishes, regularly (Notice I said regularly not nightly) I cleaned my toilet, my sink, my clothes, vacuumed  also on a regular basis.  When I lost my car keys I would look and find my own car keys.  Before I would go out I would open my closet and pick out my mismatched pieced together wardrobe that I though looked good. Yes, thought.

Oh my how things have changed for this man.

That independent, opinionated, self-reliant man has taken a step back these days.  So, now listen to the kind of man I have become... and becoming.

I now do the dishes each night, as soon as dinner is done.  My home is no longer semi clean, but a beautiful clean home where I even recognize when things are out of order and out of place.  But the best part is when I loose something I no longer go look for it my first words are "Kari have you seen_______"?  Before I even look.  It is like I am no longer capable of looking myself.  My favorite one that pushed our relationship into a new whole level of lost independence just happened.  I came home the other day ready to go out to a party and I asked my beautiful bride "What am I wearing tonight?" (Like I am no longer capable of picking it out) And her response: "I have already picked them out and laid them on the bed for you"  And it hit me right there...I no longer have to think in this marriage.  The man I once was has officially been dissolved. Completely.

This is not a bad thing though.  Scripture tells us that TWO will become ONE.  And I think this is a very true statement.  In ways that go far beyond the obvious.  You see I think I am no longer that person because I want to try as hard as I can to be a better man for my wife.  One that is not independent, but DEPENDS on her. Not opinionated but stops to LISTEN to her thoughts and feelings. Not self-reliant but one who puts her NEEDS above my own. And somehow, through the mysteries of God become ONE working unit, not two.  And if that means I no longer have to think about what I wear.  So be it.